i really miss my laptop, just thought i'd throw that out there- i can get it fixed this weekend because i'm missin it, somethin awful. but other than that, life is going pretty swell :) my internship is definitely keeping me on my toes and this set of classes officially ends in about 5 days but my next set of classes starts about 2 days after that....sad day. but that means i'm closer to being done. woop.
happy 4th of july, to all of you. thank you, so much, to those that have served or are currently serving our country so we can live our lives with the freedoms that we have because of your sacrifices.
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I just want that late night movie, make pancakes together, cuddle up on the couch, kind of relationship.
Forever only lasts until the going gets rough.
Don't depend on next times and second chances.
I wasn't born with enough middle fingers to tell you exactly how I feel about you.
we're all walking around with these glossy eyes. 'i'm just tired.' we say. but you know what, it's bullshit. yes, we are tired, but it's not all from lack of sleep. we are tired of waking up with nothing to look forward to, tired of going to bed exhausted after doing a million things we find no enjoyment in doing. we're tired of this void, this emptiness that looms over us even though our days are packed. we're tired of the loneliness that presses down on us even though we're surrounded by dozens of people. so why can't we just say it..humans are afraid to look into eachother's eyes and say 'i am unhappy, i am broken, i am hopeless, and fallible.' we've been conditioned to associate pain with weakness, sadness with coldness, loneliness with unworthiness, difference with disease, as if these feelings are contagious, as if ambivalence is something not to be felt but to be feared. well, i say screw all of that. screw forced smiles and polite handshakes and i'm fine, thank you. screw the fear of crying in a public place, screw the fake chipper voice, screw the lies we spit out to cover up our problems. we are humans. we are meant to feel. to feel everything and to feel it all openly. we are not metal- we are flesh and hope. our boiled blood courses through our cold, clammy hands. we are intricate and beautiful and we should never hide our human parts, because if we do, what's left to show?
It’s funny how you can be face to face with someone, and yet it feels as though you’re on the other side of the world from them. They haven’t actually gone anywhere, but they might as well have. It’s one of the worst feelings to become acquainted with: to miss someone who’s literally right there.
No one can hurt me anymore. In fact, no one can even come close because I just don't care anymore. About anything. I wake up & don't care what I wear. I don't care what I do on the weekends. I just go through the motions. So I sure as hell don't care what you do with your life anymore.
he will always be able to play the 'friend' card on you. He only has to be responsible for the expectations of a friend, rather than the far greater expectations of a boyfriend. He's got the ultimate situation: a great friend with all the benefits of a girlfriend, whom he can see or not see whenever he wants to. He may be one of your closest friends, but I'm sorry to say, as a boyfriend, he's just not that into you.
I want to get drunk, completely wasted. Not for the fun of it or to be "cool" but just to forget all the bullshit going on in my life right now. I want to sit on a sandy beach and watch the waves just crash, like my life. And when I finally get wasted i want to call you and tell you all the shit i've been wanting to tell you for days now. Things weren’t supposed to be like this.
what's on my mind? i'm fuckin tired. i'm tired of caring for people who don't give a shit about me. i'm tired of waiting for texts that won't come, and thinking things will be different yet they never change. i'm tired of giving out chances, only to be let down. i'm tired of putting fourth 100% of effort and only getting 25% in return. i'm tired of broken promises, and of let downs, especially by the people who matter the most to me. i'm tired of making someone a priority, when in reality i'm just an option. i'm tired of shitty friends who are never there for me. i'm tired of assholes who only manipulate a situation from their own perspective, never even thinking about what someone else is going through. i'm tired of the same old bullshit over and over again.
Never lose yourself trying to hold on to someone who doesn't care about losing you.
You ever had that one person who just makes your life better. The one is all the stars in the sky and that can make you smile with just one look? That person who you would die for. The one who makes your gray skies blue and as cliche as it sounds, they actually make your heart skip a few beats. Hold on to that person, don't let them slip away because life without them, isn't the same
Sorry, but I don't need any part-time people in my life. You're either with me, or you're not. You can't just come and go as you please.
Don't base your decisions on advice from people who don't have to deal with the results.
i've been disappointed so many times that not giving a crap is almost a reflex.
I don't know exactly what I was waiting for, but every moment that I'm with you feels like everything I've been waiting for.
“I love you” – a warning, an apology, an interruption. A plead for attention. An objection, an excuse. A justification. A reminder. A trap, a blessing, a disguise. A way of saying nothing. A way of summarizing everything. A surrender. An opening. An end.
But you just come to know that you get so used to being loved, and in one second it can all come crashing down. Now I know to not let anything get that far ever again, because I didn't know how I could wake up one morning and have it all hit me. I didn't know I could miss you this much.
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love, love, loving! my life. i cannot wait for this weekend. i hope my smooch is feeling better, because i want to spend time outside around the pond!! wooooo! i can't wait to see my family this weekend :) i love you all! have a safe and happy weekend!
love,
mojo
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