Don't be careless, just care less
I guess I'll ignore what I feel. Somehow I'll have to try and deal. I just have one more thing to say. I hope you realize what you missed some day.
I'm looking for the slightest sign that you miss what you left behind.
Everything is different now. Why are you so distant now? Everything has changed. Yeah, nothing is the same, Since the day you went away, nothing feels at all okay with me.
He taught me how to trust myself. He taught me how I should love every flaw. He taught me that no matter what, I should just make the decision and jump and not regret it.
I want to be with someone real. Someone who never has to pretend and who I never have to pretend around. Someone who's smart but knows how to laugh at himself. Someone who would listen to a symphony and start to cry because he understands that music can be too big for words. Someone who knows me better than I know myself. Someone I want to talk to first thing in the morning and last thing at night. Someone I feel like I've known my whole life even if I haven't
No one knows about you and me. No one knows how much I cared about you and how much I still do. No one knows about all the secrets we shared and all the good times we had. No one knows how all these thoughts of you still haunt me every day. No one knows and no one will ever understand why I can’t get over you.
I just wanna feel okay again. Everything that's happened lately has been stretching my strength to it's very ends. I don't know how much longer I can hold on. I feel like I'm drowning, literally. I've been fighting this current for so long and I have been fighting desperately to stay at the surface. But now, all I wanna do is give up. Someone please rescue me?
Everyone tells you that you deserve better, but no one is willing to give it to you.
I am incredibly awkward and negative. I get attached easily and I hold on for too long. I don't like opening up to people. Most five year old children can express their feelings better than me. I hide behind my fake smiles. I'm probably one of the most difficult people you will ever meet. But I can be sweet. I'm a great listener. I'll guard your secrets with my life. I will never judge you based on your mistakes and I'll love you as much as I can. I can be, if you let me, one of the best things in your life.
I miss that feeling. The feeling you get when you have someone in your life you can tell things to. A person that you can tell all your hopes, dreams and aspirations. Knowing that they are truly listening. The feeling of a person who wants to talk to you, because you are you. The feeling of a friend.
Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many times I’ve sat in my room and cried, how many times I’ve lost hope, how many times I’ve been let down. Nobody knows how many times I’ve had to hold back the tears, how many times I’ve felt like I’m about to snap but don’t just for the sake of others. Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head whenever I’m sad, how horrible they truly are. Nobody knows me, and thats what I hate the most.
Don't lose yourself in attempt to hold on to someone who doesn't care about losing you.
Sometimes you just need to be alone. Sometimes not even your best friends need to know. Sometimes you just need to put up the walls so you can examine yourself in the peace and quiet. Sometimes the loud sounds need to fade away, leaving only the silence and you. That's it.
People hurt me, criticize me, turn their backs on me, time and time again. They kill me slowly, and then ask me what my problem is.
We refuse to see how bad something is until it completely destroys us.
When you finally realize you don't matter at all to someone you begin to wonder if you matter to anyone.
Life is your professor, know that bitch is gonna test you.
And after all of this, I’m still confused. I’m still not sure how I feel about you. I’m still not sure how you feel about me. I don’t know if you ever cried over me, like I cried over you. But one thing I’m certain about is, I will never find another you.
She has feelings, she has a heart. In fact, she probably has the biggest heart among all the girls you know. Because although you’ve given her nothing, not one reason for her to be around, she’s still there. And someday, she won’t be anymore.
You’re gonna realize you miss this.
I act like shit don’t phase, inside it drives me crazy.
Sometimes the person who tries to keep everyone happy is always the most lonely person, so never leave them alone because they will never say that they need you.
So let’s drink to memories we shared, down one for all the hopes and cares. Here’s two for being unaware that you’re gone because before too long you’ll be a memory.
You never know what you have lost 'til you are standing in a room with that person not being able to call them yours.
We stopped checking for monsters under our beds because we realized they were inside us.
You can easily judge the character of a man by how he treats those who can do nothing for him.
Happiness is a conscious choice, not an automatic response.
It's hard to look for something new when what you want is right in front of you.
What makes some people important? It's not just the happiness that you feel when you see them, but it's also the pain you feel when you miss them.
You see, the same one I'm missing is basically the reason I became something different.
I'm not saying I'm the nicest. I just live life like it.
I try to be nice, I really do. But sometimes all I want to say is screw you.
I don't necessarily want to be happy, I just want to stop feeling miserable.
Maybe my face doesn't light up when I see you anymore, but my heart still does.
I can take on as many classes as I want and go out every chance I get, but there's still always room for you in my mind.
I know that I should just let go, walk away, and not look back. But I don't think I could handle knowing that you wouldn't care if I did.
I don't care. And I'll keep telling myself that until it's true.
I sit here and wonder if you will ever understand just how much of me belonged to you.
And sometimes, I just feel so alone.
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it's finals week!!!! YAYYYYYY!!!
3 days of finals, 3 days off, NEW JOB/INTERNSHIP, NEW HOUSE, summer classes :(
school's ending and starting basically at the same time, but there's SOOOO much excitement in my life right now. i cannot wait!
love,
mojo
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